Saturday, September 12, 2009

Perfect Strangers

"We are all strangers in a strange land, longing for home, but not quite knowing what or where home is. We glimpse it sometimes in our dreams, or as we turn a corner, and suddenly there is a strange, sweet familiarity that vanishes almost as soon as it comes."  - Madeleine L'Engle

"Vreti aceasta sticla?" (you want this bottle?) I asked the woman one of the many small, local bohemian convenient stores, after purchasing a one liter bottle of Timisoreana (one of the better tasting beers here, at the price of 2 ron -- $.66). 
"Da" (yes) was her response. As silly as it seems to return empty glass bottles with the romanian brand of brew on them, as though the company only distributes x amount of bottles, or charges each distributor for each bottle they use-- I have this strange sense of community as a result of this mundane routine I would never have to do in America.  I wonder who I have shared this bottle with in the community that frequents this store.
"bine, multumesc, La revedere". (Well, thank you! goodbye)
It's rather empowering and humbling to communicate in a foreign culture, and in a foreign language on my own. I have never had to think so hard about what I am saying, and even still mess up what I was trying to say. As broken as I am in my language capabilities, and as foreign as i probably sound, I am thankful I have a rather musical ear, and can at least fudge a romanian accent. Anytime I speak to a native here, I picture myself in LA with a mexican or spanish foreigner talking to me in broken English, and I can really sympathize. That was about the greatest extent to interaction with foreigners I had on a consistent basis up until coming to Eastern Europe.
I picked up 6 hours of English Lessons this week with some Koreans going to a private British School. Two girls age 9 and 12. My heart breaks for my 12 year old student. She came with her family 3 weeks ago. Left all her friends behind, has no friends here, and has little confidence in her ability in school because she cannot speak English very well. Her mom said she was stressed a lot this week, and was sick for two days because of it. 
I have been teaching Junghoon Ahn, another Korean, who is 29, 5 hours a week since April. Junghoon is one of my favorite people here. Aside from Amanda's Family, I can vent with him the ridiculousness of the society here. I am also teaching Eun Ji Park, another Korean who goes to Bucharest Christian Academy drum lessons each week. I taught her and her sister English 3 hours a week each this summer.
I received another email from another Korean Family Asking me to teach 4 of them for a total of 10 hours per week, friends of the Lee Family (the 9 and 12 year old girls). 
It is interesting to me that I was going to teach English to Koreans in South Korea, until my plans were changed and that opportunity was slammed shut in my face twice.
I didn't expect to teach Koreans here in Romania, and I never expected to identify so well with them. Maybe I was suppose to teach Koreans, but more importantly, maybe I was suppose to identify with them. I probably would never had had the opportunity to relate so well to them in Korea. In Romania, where you have to return empty beer bottles where you bought them, where dogs rule the streets, where you cant keep your windows open at night because of the noise pollution, Where water trucks spray water on the streets to "keep the dust down"--turning all the dirt to mud to be thrown everywhere by automobiles, where you can find flat screen TV's for advertising in the metro stops but can't get clean sheets in a hospital bed, Where you can walk down the street and have the air in your local proximity contaminated with any sort of chemical that may be coming out of a broken compression canister in the bed of a pickup truck that would normally be prohibited from the road because of the excessive black and blue smoke coming out of the tail pipe, Or where English and/or Korean  isn't the official language--we are both not home. In a way, we are both the same. We are both foreigners to eachother, but yet foreigners together here.
Maybe that is why I am here and not Korea. 




Sunday, September 6, 2009

gray skies, downpours and hearts of sorrow

Dear Adam,

It rained today, high of 18 C. Yesterday was 34 C and sunny.
I thank God for the rain and the gray. It breaks my heart, and reminds me I need Him.
I wish I always had a broken heart. Solomon said the heart of the wise is in the house of mourning, and fools in the house of pleasure. I hate that I can spend 3 days without intentional prayer.

I have new lessons starting this week. Frustrating that its on the north end of town and could take upwards of 1.5 hours to get there, but I am thankful, 3 times a week for 2 hours per time.
I was going to work at a new French Bakery in town. But, 1000 ron per month ($306) for 160 hours of work is not worth it. I also was considering working at a school teaching kindergarten English. I also didnt have peace about this. Confirming I think I got two phone calls this weekend about lessons. Only one panned out, but it is enough. And I will still have time to practice guitar, and go to the clinic to pray. That is trully how I would like to spend my time.

I got a plane ticket home for thanksgiving today. Mom and Dad, Amanda and I are coming to see you. I cant wait. I hope you'll be there too Maria and Jon. I miss you guys so much.

Today I realized that I am tired of status quo christianity. I am tired of giving God less, Someone once said the greatest battles are won on our knees with empty stomaches. I havent had sore knees and hunger pains in a long time, My ipod is almost always on, I think my eardrums need some rest. It seems obsessive and an abuse of art when you are so saturated you dont know what to listen to.
I think its time to look away, turn off, shut down, and be still, and let my heart break a little more everyday.

Your international Friend,
Nate
we all have our beliefs but we dont want our beliefs, God of peace, we want you


Wednesday, July 1, 2009

one wisdom tooth less, and 15 minutes from being deported







Some wild and exciting things have happened since I last checked in. I went to Bulgaria I got my one-year visa, and almost got deported in the process and I went on a mission trip to rural Romania.
First-visa:
As previously understood, I would be allowed to be in romania for 6 months before having to either leave the country, or get a long-term visa. Once I touched down on Mar 22nd, I would be allowed 3 months (90 days) before having to get a new tourist visa (a passport stamp--accomplished by going to some other country of choice and returning) once I have a new tourist visa I am allowed another 90 days. Figuring I was not going to have enough time to get all my paperwork together before june 20th (the 90-day mark) Amanda and I went to Bulgaria June 13th to get a new visa. Upon return, Amanda starts freaking out about getting my visa done before we would go on the medical mission one week later, June 20th for whatever reason. So frantically we Spend all day Tuesday the 16th getting medical insurance and paying tax. We go to 5 different notaries trying to get a document notorized that says I have not changed my identity in the last 5 years. Of course its not easy--all notaries require an official translator present for foreigners. Somehow at the 5th notary, by God's grace I am able to fudge my way into convicing the notary that I understand romanian enough to know what this contract say {its amazing how far "Da" (yes) and "nu"(no) will get you in this country}. We finally get back to the medical insurance office and get my insurance. Lunchtime.
After lunch we decide we should pay the taxes I need to pay in order to get this silly visa. Of course in true non-logical romanian fashion, we have to exchange 510 lei into 120 euros, get the receipt, and then change the 120 euros back into lei, and pay the tax. Then there are two other payments to be made at the cec (state-run) bank. We finish all of this about 20 minutes before English lessons at 4pm.
Thursday afternoon comes around and we decide we need to go get my visa. First try: after waiting in line for 1 hour We are missing my volunteer contract with asociate pasa iniante. its 2pm. The office closes at 6:30, and we cant meet with my contact until 5:00 to get my contact. at 5, i wait in line while Amanda goes to get my contract. She returnes at 5:30. By Gods grace, there is no line. We hand over all our paper work. -- housing contract, passport, volunteer contract, medical insurance, receipts for taxes paid, statement from pasa iniante about who they are. The lady converses with the other lady for a good 5 minutes and starts counting. She tells Amanda something. Amanda's eyes get enormous as she tells me "NATE! WE ARE SO BLESSED" As it turns out, the laws have changed -- you are only allowed 90 days in romania on a tourist visa before having to get a real visa, or leaving the country for 6 months. My bulgarian passport stamp means nothing now. Turns out I was 15 minutes away from getting deported. I was in Romania for 88 days at this point. Friday and Saturday the office is closed. I am now legally in romania for the next year. phew.

The medical mission:
There is a mid-sized city in southwest romania called craiova, it is 3 hours west of bucharest. This little city is our home base while we were to serve each day in a small rural village. We had a team of dentists, doctors, nurses, and I served on the evangelism team. We would see 300 patients a day, and I would share Jesus with probably 100 of them. It wasnt my ideal situation--I was very rushed, I only had about 10-15 minutes with each group of 3-5 or so. Sadly, we werent really meeting spiritual needs but on a rare case, as most of these people are orthodox christians. I think when you put the holy spirit on a clock you are limiting Him, and He wont really show up in the way He really wants to. Because of this, I think we werent as fruitful as we could have been. Many got saved, but I didnt really sense they needed the sinner's prayer, they needed the Kingdom of God, which comes in power and with an encounter. Though there were a few that I believe truly had needs met, and many said they now believed they had relationship with God and eternal life. I really wanted talk with them more, listen to them more and pray longer with them. Regardless, I was good trip. I got my wisdom tooth extracted, and I learned that there truly are people in the world that live in villages like hobbits.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

summer comes soon

Hello friends,
I realize it has been awhile and for this I apologize.
exciting things are happening, Despite the california-like heat that has been re-occuring here, which I hear will only intensify as the summer dawns and progresses.

Two weeks ago I was able to take part in a music event that was administered by a missionary from Minnesota. It was designed as an outreach to the musicians here in the city. It was an evening of jazz music that was recorded with audio and video. there was a string section, as well as 2 horn players and a rhythm section. It was neat to network and meet some musicians here in the city and develop some new relationships.

New English students are coming along right and left. I have 3 new students -- two korean students and a romanian pastor. I am excited to work with all three of them.

My Visa process is also moving along. What was a very daunting task is looking very positive. I got a housing contract and a legal address here in bucharest, If everything goes as planned, I should be able to turn in all the paper work in a month or so.
Until then, I will have to leave the country to renew my tourist visa. I had plans to go to venice italy, but plane tickets are more than expected, so now a train ride to bulgaria looks to be on the horizon in a week or so. I also have a medical mission coming up June 20th for a week. We will be going to the countryside to work in a village. I will get to work with children and also the evangelism/prayer station. It should be very exciting.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

routine setting and relationship progress


Its week 4.
this city isnt so depressing when the flowers come out and the sun burns away the gray. Its getting to be in the low 20's which translates to be 65-75 on the F scale. Quite an early spring in comparison to my New England norm. For whatever reason, the overcast gray days are much more memorable in this city than the bright sunny ones. Rather, I guess it seems this city's dominant color is gray, so the apropos gray sky accentuates this city's gray beauty. I suppose it is- stereotypical for eastern europe.
I hit a low point last saturday. Had some relational issues with Amanda--felt broken and disconnected from my only friend here. Its amazing how a person is what makes a place home. Its also amazing how relationships require work, and I am beginning to see that is what really makes them valuable.

I have been praying with volunteers at the crisis pregnancy clinic and been able to bless and encourage them, and share things That God has put on my heart which have actually been things spoken over them previously.
I feel like my timing in coming here has been divinely orchestrated. The number one goal for the director of the clinic is to share Jesus and the Gospel with everyone that comes in. This is the only remaining clinic in Bucharest, and the only clinic owned by this organization that is debt free. It also has the highest numbers of any of the other clinics owned by this organization in this country. Roxana, the director knows that this is God's favor because of her goal of sharing the gospel.
Anyway, Over the last month Roxana has been put under much stress -- her boss has been verbally abusing her as well as wanting to her discontinuing a number of very fruitful programs the center does, He is also telling her she needs to change the strategy of the center to discontinue prayer and by taking Jesus out of the mission. All of this because the bucharest clinic is making the other clinics look bad because the numbers are so high compared to the low numbers of the other clinics.
Anyway, as I have been praying about this, I have really been sensing a burden of spiritual attack on this clinic. Last night I got to share with the 20 workers of the clinic about the authority we in prayer, and the absolute necessity of it. It touched a lot of people and opened their eyes to the urgency about praying for this clinic.

in other news:
- Amanda and I have started praying nightly for her mother's arthritis in her hips. She has been able to move much more freely and with less pain since. Praise Jesus! we are continuing pray and contend for total healing.
-I made a good connection with an international church this week and will be playing percussion sunday mornings
- I picked up a new drum student--a European man from France who is fluent in 4 languages, has traveled the world -- one of those guys that makes you feel like you havent done much with your life. Great to feel like I have something to offer him.

I miss:
- being able to talk to strangers
- my amazing community
- the convenience of America
- customer service
- mexican food
- sushi
- frisbee golf
- smash brothers
- my family

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